谎言好让自己好过

我相信很多人都知道我有病吧，但是我是不会让你们同情我的。。。一点机会也不给让你们来同情我这个病者，因为我最讨厌被同情。。。所以我选择用谎言来骗你们和骗我自己
原因很简单，因为我不想让人知道我有多糟糕～我承认我是一个爱面子的人，但是我也有我自己的尊严。。。所以我是不会让你们得逞的
其实我的病比之前严重得多了，我自己也有察觉到这次比之前严重很多。。。你们问我我也只会说还是老样子，因为我知道你们在担心我，就是因为这样我才会要说谎好让我自己好过点。。。其实我也不想的，没有人想要自己有病，没有人想要自己还没完成的东西就这样没了，没有人想自己的努力过就这样完了，没有人想还没交到女朋友就这样完了。。。我还有很多个东西还没做，老天爷你不可以这样对我，而且我没犯错为什么要这样对我？
说真的说到这里我的行动已经不是很方便了，以前刚开始还可以运动，跑，走，跳。。。而现在呢，不要说跑就连走路都成问题，也跑医院多次了，结果当然一样啦。。。不用问都知道，说真的有点失望。。。我失望是因为现在科技那么发达，竟然没有一个东西是可以把我给医好。。。反而是越来越糟糕
我的生命越来越短了，我当然珍惜我的生命。。。不过（你）相信不相信就你的事了，因为你一直都说我会好的。。。但我的生命只剩下那短短的几个月或几年，不过我会珍惜我的生命。。。不让他白白流走

I believe many people also know my illness,but i won't let you all to sympathy with me.....I won't give one chance to them to sympathy with me,because i hate sympathy....So i choose to lie with you all and me also
Reason so easy,because i don't want let people know i become more worst~I admit i love my own face, but me also got my own dignity....So i won't let you all try to sympathy with me
Actually my illness compare to before more serious,myself also got realise it....you all ask me i sure will say still the same,because i don't want you all to worry with me,like tat i choose to lie with you all to give me good ...Actually me don't want ,no people will want illness,no people think not yet finish the thing we have do like that lost,no people think mine own attempt like that lost jor,no people will think not yet have real girl friend like that lost....I still have many thing not yet finish do,god you can't like that do with me,but me also not do anything wrong why you want to punish me?
Now a days, my action already not good,previously i still can sport, run,walk,jump like a hyper active, but now don't say another run like walk also got problem,also go hospital many time,the result still same...don't ask also know, actually got little bit disappointed......i disappointed is because of science and technology already advance,still the same nothing can cure my illness.....instead more worst
My life still got little bit short,i sure will value my life.....but (you) still don't believe then that is your problem,because you always say me good.....My life still have how many month or year,but i will value my life....Won't let my life waste
My life is valueber......




Hao Wei
04/10/2012
0400am
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